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Pseudolonewolf`s Avatar I'm back now... Fri 1st Jul 2011 1:44pm

Category: Trips

I've returned from my trip thing with my girlfriend, back to my lonely room, and now I have to spend the next few months all alone yet again... Sigh...

I'll write more about what I plan to do game-wise and stuff later; at the moment, I'm finding it hard to not cry... Usually after these trips, I cry a bit but look forward, trying to look on the bright side, considering all the positives about being alone (usually it's mainly 'I can get more work done now'); I don't usually really break down into sobbing or anything though. But this time I seem to be doing just that, since our time together was so nice and everything I see reminds me in some way of it or her, and I know that it'll be months before I see her again, before I even feel the touch of another human being, really...

Which all sounds very sad and perhaps melodramatic, or something. It's hard, though, being in a long-distance relationship... They're great in that you can meet people you can get along with better than anyone you may happen to meet in your immediate vicinity, but the time apart is torture.

And yet most peoples' idea of a 'long distance relationship' seems to be a relationship where their partner lives ten minutes away by car so they can only meet up on weekends or something. Sigh. I envy such people. I envy long-distance relationships where the partners live in the same *country*.

Anyway, I'd assume that most of you aren't here to listen to me go on about any of this kind of thing, so I'll just leave it at this.

So yes, game news and stuff should follow in a few hours, probably... I suppose I just wanted to get this off my chest, at least a little bit.


29 Commentson 20 roots

BuddyBlueBomber`s Avatar
Rating Orb BuddyBlueBomber 18 United States PhlegmaticSanguine 7C 4F
6 years ago | (1)
Long-distance relationships certainly are hard, I can relate to that personally. It's hard not to let this kind of thing bother you, it starts to take over you. You start to crave touch, just any sort of contact. Talking over the phone or webcam helps, but it just isn't enough, and it can put a lot of stress on someone.

I've been with my girl for four years, over three of which she was living 4000 miles away. People said it wasn't smart. That it couldn't be done. But when you truly care for someone, you can't let other people's judgements effect your actions. Now look where we are; she actually moved up here. I guess what I'm trying to say is that no matter how hard and frustrating it gets, long-distance relationships can work if you put in the effort. Maybe one day you'll see each other more often. It may be hard, but try and keep positive about this sort of thing, or it will put great stress on both you and your girlfriend.

I wish you the best of luck on this matter. Choose to ignore these words if they bother you for some reason.
SajbTheSherlock`s Avatar
Rating Orb SajbTheSherlock 21 Serbia CholericSanguine 28C 0F
6 years ago | (2)
i share your pain matey...actually shared
i know how is it to have long distance relationship and when you're on the one side of the country and she's on the bloody other
i believe being in different countries is even harder, anyway i would probably say something like i always do but since i know how you feel I'll leave you be
just don't end up brooding all day and night
Varyx`s Avatar
Rating Orb E β Varyx 19 Australia MelancholicCholeric 210C 28F
6 years ago | (5)
I remember coming back home on the plane earlier this year- I cried until I passed out, and then started crying again when I had to change planes because it felt like I was getting further and further away from the person who I cared about and I wasn't sure when I'd ever see him again. The people on the plane were horrified.

Anyway, you're not alone. You'll see her again soon, and I was going to say you should really consider webcams or Skype even if you don't actually *say* things- it's always nice to see the person you love, especially if it's just both of you doing your own thing and working/playing games or whatever. It makes me feel more like I'm able to be with them (or closer to them? um...) and less sick at the thought of not really being *next* to them.

I know you're averse to the idea, but maybe think about it anyway :) just something to mull over.
andraeoc`s Avatar
Rating Orb andraeoc 17 Philippines MelancholicPhlegmatic 3C 0F
6 years ago | (3)
I can imagine what's going on, and I can say it's really hard for you. You'll get over it, and be better eventually.

Long distance relationships rarely survives in our country... Yes, it rarely occur, but most of the couples here live as close as possible, probably in the same city or town, or even in the same house. Communication by cellphones and social networking sites such as Facebook are common here, and also are medium for keeping in touch with each other. In addition, most of the relationship here rarely stays for a year. It may be because of third parties, affection loss, or they just want to end it because they want to. The term "month anniversary" is also used to celebrate the day of when they became an official couple.

As for me, I haven't tried to go into having a relationship. Though I may be at a decent age, but I think I'm too immature for that. My mental irregularities and low self esteem also deprive me of expressing my love or feelings about someone.
RockDrake24`s Avatar
Rating Orb RockDrake24 29 United States PhlegmaticCholeric 26C 0F
6 years ago | (5)
In my experience, long distance relationships are extremely difficult to maintain. Not that I haven't tried... I've been on the receiving end of the 'Dear John' letter pretty much every time in those situations. It takes a lot of effort and dedication to maintain something like that.

That being said, Pseudo, you're doing stellar. You're dedication to her and the relationship is something to be envied. She's a lucky girl and you're a lucky guy, because she seems to be just as dedicated.

The most I can offer is words of encouragement. I know it's rough, but you'll make it through.

I admit... I am a bit jealous... partly, because of your shared dedication, but also because it's been a while since I've felt anything remotely close to feelings that strong for someone.
Lagirius`s Avatar
Rating Orb Lagirius 23 Brazil SanguinePhlegmatic 1C 0F
6 years ago | (4)
I know exactly how you feel, man...
But, getting things offa (??) chest is good. Almost as good as crying!
Eagerly waiting for Miasmon and for Beast Signer remake! GANBATTE, Lonewolf-sama!
laelin`s Avatar
Rating Orb ! laelin 18 United States 1C 0F
6 years ago | (30)
This is truly sad and pathetic. Maybe some of the other user's want to hear you always mopping about, but i came here for the fantastic games you make. I understand that she is more and important to you than this website and i respect that. However, if are still choosing to perue this as a career choice then you have to learn how to seperate personal life from the workplace, which in this case is this site, and you've got to learn how to work when you're your own employer. im sick of thes pushed deadlines and constant teases of new ideas for games, pick one and make it. you're never going to get anywhere doing the things you do. seriously how old are you? dont you still live with your parents? if you really want to be with your girl then go do that. move closer to her and get a steady paying job. be with her instead of this site. what ever you do just make a decession for once in your life.
amelt`s Avatar
Rating Orb amelt 15 United States SanguineMelancholic 69C 0F
6 years ago | (6)
What I find sad and pathetic is that you can't find anything better to do than troll the leader of the community you have joined; despite the fact that we only know him by his pen name, it's important to remember that Pseudolonewolf is an actual human being and not a jumble of text and a dragon picture. None of us, least of all Pseudolonewolf, should have to listen to this. He owes you nothing.

Note to Pseudolonewolf: If you don't want me to come to your defense, I apologize, and will let you fight or ignore your own battles in the future.
RockDrake24`s Avatar
Rating Orb RockDrake24 29 United States PhlegmaticCholeric 26C 0F
6 years ago | (4)
That's quite inconsiderate of you, Rating Orb ! laelin. It seems to me that you haven't read Rating Orb A β Pseudolonewolf's bio and you haven't paid much attention to his mental incongruities. If you had, maybe you'd think a little more and maybe try to imagine yourself in Pseudo's shoes before posting a comment that shows both a lack of commiseration as well as a lack of awareness.

That being said, I'm gonna break a posting rule. I'm okay with that, though, You're attitude deserves it, Rating Orb ! laelin. If you're that much of a controlling work-a-holic that work ethics takes precedence over your need for human connection (on your own terms rather than that of others), than I feel sorry for whoever happens to choose you as a husband. They're gonna be miserable for the rest of their lives.

Okay... Flame over.
Gaellan`s Avatar
Rating Orb Gaellan 18 United States SanguineCholeric 9C 0F
6 years ago | (5)
i guess maybe laelin was a bit harsh. i understand his frustrastion though. a couple points in his defense however. RockDrake24, Laelin never said anything about pseudo should become a workaholic so that he never has a connection with another human. i know this because i am laelin. I think its ridiculous that i was banned. i just posted my personal opinion. i was frustrated at the time, still am a little bit. I merely meant to say that as any person cant come to work and not work because of soimething that happened in your personal life. if i came to work (i work as a helper on a 18 wheeler unloading beer to help pay for college) and i had a girlfriend who i hadnt seen for monthes and i was starting feel sad because i hadnt seen her, my boss wouldnt care i would still have to do my job. I guess i dont come from the same world as him so its hard for me to empathize with him. truthfully i feel the comment about me being a terrible husband was way out of line. I am actually very chivalrus. Some of my best quaities are making people smile and laugh. and i promise i am no blog troller. they hide behind a screen name and fake facades. My name is Alexander Nicholas Naefe Morris. this is my facebook account if you want to see who i am, [LINK] I live in lawrenceville georgia. i am eighteen and i'm going to GCSU for college. I love music and the opposite sex. my favorite things to do are camping, drumming, driving, and just being with my friends. When i posted that comment it was the first time i was on here in awhile because i check up everynow and then and im sorry if i was a little frustrated when i came back and didnt see any real advances on new games. after making this account and dwelling further i found that progress had been made and i am sorry for spewing my emotions out for everyone to see as pseudo had done. because well that got me banned some how. i think it was miss read. it was meant to be harsh advice not slander.

p.s. please unban my laelin profile between you and me i like that screen name better, i have a whole story behind it that comes from an entire childhood of my imagination creating what is very personal world to me.

P.S.S. i really am sorry if you dont believe me anyone can send me a message on facebook and i'll answer anyquestions or varify anything you might want to know, who knows we may even become friends or something.
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freedomcaged`s Avatar
Rating Orb freedomcaged 18 United States MelancholicCholeric 86C 64F
6 years ago | (7)
Not what I was expecting, but understandable, we are all human after all. Ovbiously you don't need us to tell you anything, venting or getting things off your chest is natural, and you're ovbiously allowed to do it on your own site. Feel better soon.
aenh`s Avatar
Rating Orb aenh 16 United States PhlegmaticSanguine 33C 10F
6 years ago | (7)
I know what you mean... I feel as if our emotional responses to such things are probably rather similar, being so restricted in love. And you're worse off than I in this regard... I can imagine how much of an emotional strain this must be for you, when you can only look, green-eyed, at the rest of the world. You have my empathy, for what it's worth.
amelt`s Avatar
Rating Orb amelt 15 United States SanguineMelancholic 69C 0F
6 years ago | (6)
... I didn't expect this, I guess.
I can't pretend to understand how you feel right now, but I'll try.
I'm not going to give you advice, because I don't have any, and if I did, I'm sure you wouldn't want it.
I'm not going to try to show you "the silver lining," that sort of thing, in my experience, just makes it worse.
You don't know me particularly well, and vice versa, so it might not mean much.
Just remember that although you are in pain, you have built a community of people who, through your website and your art, have gotten to know you a little, and who care about you. That's not easy, but you've done it, and the people here want you to be happy.
I hope your pain is resolved.
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