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Pseudolonewolf`s Avatar Weekly Update Sun 7th Aug 2011 2:30pm

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Well, as you'll be aware if you've been reading the news posts I've written over the course of the week, I've been working on Miasmon, getting plot stuff done in particular.

I've basically decided on the plot now, but I need to write the script still.
I never approached games like MARDEK by writing an actual script out first; whenever there was a conversation necessary, I just wrote it directly into the game. I knew the general flow of the story, so it's not like I was making it up as I went along, but it did have downsides because it was difficult to edit earlier conversations if I thought of an idea later in order to foreshadow that idea...

So a better approach, which I'm going to try with Miasmon, would be to write out all the dialogue for all three chapters before adding any to the game. That way, I have a solid idea of what will happen and when, so I'll be able to add adequate foreshadowing and stuff like that, and won't have to worry about releasing chapter 1 and then wishing while writing chapter 2 that I'd not included something earlier, or that I HAD, and so on and so forth... Yes. It'll be much better this way... though it'll probably take a while to do. Hopefully not long though; it's not as if I am writing a novel, and I'm going to try to keep dialogue 'short' while still conveying as much actual story...

I might upload some more screenshots soon; yet again the visuals have changed a bit since I last uploaded any. So if I do upload any more, they'll be on the Miasmon game page thing.

Ugh, I feel so distracted right now... If you're only interested in games stuff, you can stop reading now since this won't relate to my games at all.

For the last few *months* now, I've been experiencing various annoying health-related things... I've had mild digestive issues for ages that seem to come and go, stuff like acidity and just a general feeling that there's something wrong... I thought it might be a peptic ulcer and saw a doctor about it, who gave me medication and said that it could either be an ulcer or just 'dyspepsia', which is indigestion. I took the medicine for a month and was fine during that time...

But at some point about three months ago, I had a strange episode where, late at night, I started shaking uncontrollably for no obvious reason... It could have been something physical, or it could have been psychological; either way, I am a hypochondriac and worry excessively about every little thing that I feel in my body, so once that started, I focused on it and worried and ended up shaking for hours and hours and eventually it turned into a full-fledged panic attack, including feeling like I was dying and all that sort of stuff that usually comes with panic attacks.

Since then, on some nights I wondered whether I'll start shaking again... Usually I don't, but sometimes I DO; it even happened a few times while I was with my girlfriend. I wonder whether it's psychological, whether I talk myself into it and it happens... This is an annoying thing with my kind of personality; I am extremely introspective and have an anxious disposition, so I end up noticing every little thing going on in my body and assuming the worst, and due to the power the mind has over the body, I've experienced many psychosomatic 'diseases' before which seemed to have all the symptoms - which seemed entirely genuine - but they were all in my head...
Things like constant nausea, or worrying that a headache is a tumour and feeling extremely dizzy as a result...
I also research symptoms online because I worry if they are unknown and seek relief, but often I make things worse.

I just don't understand how people who never worry excessively about their health can DO that... It's like how I can't understand how some people just don't think about anyone but themselves; I don't understand that either.

Anyway, I started shaking uncontrollably again last night and slept poorly as a result. It's annoying, since the last time it happened was weeks ago, and there was no reason for me to even be feeling anxious or ill or anything last night; I'd been a lot worse a few weeks ago and didn't get it then. Mumble grumble.

I'm mentioning this just to 'vent', mainly. I am NOT looking for 'advice', like people telling me to see a doctor (which I probably will do anyway and it's not like I need to be convinced into doing that), or saying things like 'duh... maybe it's diabetes/hypoglycaemia/whatever' (since I am a hypochondriac and will research and worry excessively at the hint of such things)...
I suppose I am curious about whether anyone else has experienced similar things though; it's always nice when experiencing scary symptoms to know that you are not alone.

I worry about my health all the time, obsessively and constantly, but I don't know if I've actually mentioned it in a news post before; maybe it's a bad idea. I suppose I'll find out soon...

Either way, I just hope that my health won't get in the way of development of Miasmon... Ugh.
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Reginleifx`s Avatar
Rating Orb Reginleifx 15 Argentina PhlegmaticMelancholic 1C 0F
6 years ago | (1)
I'm worried about that, I'm pretty sure it's nothing serious though.
Anyway, it isn't diabetes, I'm sure of that too, my grandmother had that and didn't shake.
Sometimes I start shaking too, that happens when I'm nervous, angry, or affraid of something, and sometimes I start shaking with no reason.
My point is: Probably it's not a sickness, maybe it's something your brain does (like warren said).
I hope you're healthy and live a lot, I worry about almost every person (I don't like murderers and rapists.), so, get better soon and good luck with Miasmon!
warren`s Avatar
Rating Orb warren 24 Canada MelancholicPhlegmatic 16C 13F
6 years ago | (1)
Uncontrollable shaking is a natural phenomenon of the nervous system. The spinal chord has a build in system to induce the shakes, usually in response to muscle fatigue (from resting in an unnatural position) or hypothermia. Whatever you do, DO NOT try to control the shakes, the signal from your brain will arrive at the muscles just as the opposite signal arrives from your spinal chord, resulting in an amplified signal.

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TheRedwolf`s Avatar
Rating Orb TheRedwolf 18 United States MelancholicPhlegmatic 85C 0F
6 years ago | (0)
One question I have is will writing the script for all chapters before putting the first one out delay the game? You have talked recently about trying to avoid delaying your games, and it sounds like writing the full script for three games might be time consuming. It was just something I was wondering, and I don't want to try and offer advice on your symptoms, as I don't want to offend you or anything like that.
Pseudolonewolf`s Avatar
Rating Orb A β Pseudolonewolf 23 United Kingdom MelancholicPhlegmatic 2257C 559F
6 years ago | (0)
It won't delay it *significantly*; I'll likely be done with the script in less than a week. After that it might actually speed up development since I'll know exactly what to do next and, well, usually it's off-putting to work on plot stuff since I know I have to write dialogue (which is alright once I'm doing it, but getting started feels like a chore that I'd rather put off), so it'd prevent that. It'd also speed up the other chapters significantly.
TheRedwolf`s Avatar
Rating Orb TheRedwolf 18 United States MelancholicPhlegmatic 85C 0F
6 years ago | (0)
That's good to hear then, it was just something that occurred to me that I wanted to ask. While I'm at it, may I ask, do you think that since you will have the others written and that should speed them up, maybe that will make you more compelled to work on the further chapters sooner?
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Kobiwan97`s Avatar
Rating Orb Kobiwan97 100 Canada PhlegmaticMelancholic 35C 46F
6 years ago | (2)
Hmmm... uncontrollable shaking in bed? Does it physically hurt you, and does it only happen when lying in bed? I hope it doesn't hurt and only happens there. :( It can't be a very pleasant feeling... I think you should worry less about getting some rare, lethal disease thing, as it *is* rare. But it is probably part of your nature to worry anyways... Well, I hope you get well soon!

I just read your Twitter thing about having 100 species (I'm not a Follower, as I don't have Twitter) and I think that your original idea of, I think, 72 or something (?) was better. You said it yourself that you don't want to keep adding features more and more as you make the game, and I think you're slowly approaching that habit again. First, you changed the main character of the game, and now you're changing the number of species there is. Do whatever you feel fit, but I don't think you should start changing too much of the game while you make it. (Not that *I* know anything about making games. I'm just trying to remind you of what you said. But you probably already know what you said, so there's no point reminding you... Eugh...)

I'm really excited to see the new screen shots of Miasmon! When I saw the first set, I just looked at them over, and over, and over, and over for a really long time! THAT'S how good the game looks! I hope you update it soon!
dragenrder`s Avatar
Rating Orb dragenrder 15 United States PhlegmaticCholeric 39C 8F
6 years ago | (0)
i seem to remember having something like that a few years back... now that i think about it mine doesn't pop up very often, once or twice a year maybe. i think the first time it happened i was 8 or 9 or something and i was really cold for no particular reason. i heaped all the blankets that i had available to me onto my bed, and crawl under them. :d every now and then i get really cold and start shaking uncontrollably and can find no real reason why i am cold. usually i think its triggered by something or other. last time it happened i had just jumped into a lake that was a bit cold i guess, yet i was cold and shaking for a few hours. and my sister (being the lovely person she is) took no notice to me while i ran off to our cabin to try and find some warmth.

The more i think about it i usually stopped by doing something stupid to get me warm (or for me to think i was warm, or something maybe o.O) for instance i was sitting next to the firepit when they came home, stupidly close anyway.

Whats weird about it is i have a very good immune system, the longest i have ever been sick is 3 days. usually I'm fine after the first. hmmmm, if it helps i got ADD and that leg thing where it feels like needles pressing into your thigh, maybe depression, maybe it linked to one of those things or something.
Abbx901`s Avatar
Rating Orb Abbx901 15 Pakistan SanguineCholeric 149C 20F
6 years ago | (1)
You have evidently made sufficient progress.
I would really recommend going slowly with your dialogue or something, because it's amusing, and its fun to read. It makes it greatly interesting, although the main interest lies within the action and the fighting and stuff like that.
I am writing one book right now. Right now, I'm dying to edit the whole thing before my school burden creates barriers. I feel that it really works for you if you leave some open spaces in the book that are up to you to fill however you wish. Crafting very specific characters and a definite, bounded storyline only creates annoying barricades that may make you feel lost when you write a sequel. As is the case with the MARDEK series.

Anyhow, I hope you get well soon for our sake as well as for your own. I'm no medical genius or anything, so my advice would be worthless. All I can do for you now, is to pray that your ailment wears off, and you're all better again.
Mehz`s Avatar
Rating Orb Mehz 18 Finland PhlegmaticMelancholic 21C 4F
6 years ago | (2)
Isn't it hard to keep everything organized if you write the dialogue directly into the game? I just think it sounds quite hard, especially with a game with as much dialogue as Mardek. But I don't really have any experience of that so I don't know what it's like.

I've only experienced uncontrollable shaking once, it wasn't very serious but still pretty scary when it happened. I'm quite sure it was because of stress, since I had been really stressed for the past week and a half with deadlines closing in on me and such. I usually get digestive issues and some sort of "unnatural tiredness" from stress, and I'm not really sure what was different that time...

I suppose I'm the type of person that never worries about their health. I might see diseases and injuries annoying, but nothing more, if they prevent me from doing something I'd like to do. And well... they can also be helpful if they give me a reason to not do something I don't want to... Sort of. Then again I'm more concerned about those around me. Not everyone, though, only those close to me.

And just as a side note, I'm not here only for news on your games, and sometimes it's a little disappointing when you decide not to write about something just because you think no one would be interested, like with the lately quite often mentioned "technical details". I remember you mentioning some time ago that you were planning a way to organize your posts so that you could write more often and freely, which would be great.

I hope you find out what is causing the shaking and get well. Good luck with Miasmon too!
Sillydragon`s Avatar
Rating Orb E Sillydragon 18 United States MelancholicCholeric 98C 41F
6 years ago | (3)
What you're experiencing can't be fun, and being a hypochondriac probably makes it a lot worse. I don't presume to know what you should do about the situation, since I hardly ever have health problems beyond the occasional cold or flu. I hope you figure something out, though. Health issues seem twice as bad when you don't know what's causing them...
zeus`s Avatar
Rating Orb zeus 12 United States MelancholicPhlegmatic 12C 13F
6 years ago | (4)
sorry you feel bad, but this is what happens when life starts to get good. No one can explain it, but that's how it works. Happens especially when like you are about to finish something that has no deadline (miasmon). Get well soon.
julian123237`s Avatar
Rating Orb julian123237 15 Isle of Man MelancholicCholeric 3C 1F
6 years ago | (3)
This does sound quite serious! However, I am not sure of how I am able to help since I have not experienced this shaking/digestion issue.

Anyway, everyone has their own problems. While I am not able to help you on this one, I believe that sharing your issues on your site is not a bad idea at all. This is one of the purposes of the Internet, for everyone to share information to help each other.

All I can say is that whatever happens, I want you to know that you have my support. Good luck, and get well soon.
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